My life has changed a lot in the last 7 months. Since I checked my phone, set it on the bedside table, closed my eyes, opened my eyes, and saw I was in an ambulance. 

The easy thing to call out is the neurosurgery. The titanium plate in my head. The inability to legally drive. The decision to stop drinking. The weight loss. 

The harder thing to call out is how my time has felt. Back at work. Sober. Still not really leaving the house.

At 5:45pm on a Sunday, I feel like I have nothing left to do. No one to call. Nothing to engage but getting into bed long before my wife. Closing my eyes not really to sleep but to see if I’m relaxed.